I have no beginning

This is dedicated to a good friend whom we will remember forever and always miss. This page of his thoughts and our memories are what he left us.

Always, Always, go with your Guts!

I have no beginning. I have no end. For I am the curve in every bend.
I am the dreamer. I am the dream. I am the terror that seeks my own scream.
I am the see’re. I am the seen. I can’t help but get caught in-between.
I am pleasure. I am pain. I am the desire that continues this game.
I am the whisper. I am the word. I am the song, tree and the bird.

Everyone has the same desire.Not just to live, but to live well.It is easy to get caught up in the little things in life.As we remind ourselves of the idea. We are animals, on Earth, spinning around a sun that is one of billions in our galaxy alone. It is difficult for us to imagine this concept let alone understand it. Yet, we seem to think we know what reality is. It is hard to judge reality if you cannot explain the basis of existence. How do you know if when you awoke this morning you didn’t actually fall asleep? Either way they are both dreams. Live your dreams well.

“Create your dreams today and live in them!”

If you are in debt and are trying to get out of debt but continue to accumulate debt in the process, you hinder your goal (getting out of debt) by an amount equivalent to the debt you continue to accumulate.

Now lets look at the same thing on our mind. If we can never start from scratch or start over in our own minds (get out of dept-as in not being able to let go of past events that trouble us) our current positive input or state of mind is offset by an equivalent amount. Meaning, if I cannot say fuck it, laugh about it and let it go. It will trouble me as long as I dwell on it. Your brain is no different than a computer. It only knows what it knows. It must have input to know more. If your past negative experiences trouble you today it means they are using valuable resources that could be used for today's growth. You control what input your brain receives. Mental discipline.

What you eat, you are. What you think, you are. Think of yesterday and you will continue to relive that day. All thoughts are the same, only negative ones trouble you. When you go on vacation you use that memory sometimes for years over and over... In the same respect you need to learn how to purge the bad memories. Everyone uses past events as a means of recalling pleasurable thoughts. Learn to forget the bad ones.

I will never get anywhere if I think about people who have screwed me. Instead I purge and focus on new. Dream of tomorrow. Don't dwell on the past.

Life is 10% what happens and 90% how I react to it.

It is like a baseball game. I am an outfielder. Now, I can not just stand there looking around scratching my nuts. Even more important I cannot be thinking about Last Years Game! I must be thinking about the present and future events of the game. I must have my glove on and be looking for the ball. I must pay attention. Lets say the ball is a representation of opportunity. If your standing there thinking about last years game and the ball hits you in the head, unless by sure fate of luck your opportunity has passed you by and left a big lump on your head that you will have to learn to deal with or it will affect you for the rest of your life.

"Follow your heart. Listen to your mind. Don't run through life as though you are blind".

We always describe things as "Man made" or "artificial". The reality is, we as humans are part of nature and all things produced by us are produced by nature. You cannot separate us from the rest of the ecosystem. We are apart of it. We are natural, and anything we produce is a natural product produced by a natural being.

"You cannot escape your nature. Resistance is futile".

Those who Dance are considered insane by those who cannot hear the music.

Your life is as short and insignificant as each and every dream you have!

Time is but a peculiar thing, I tend to spend it rather than keep it...

When I was a child I shot a Blue Jay with my brand new Beebe gun. I hit him in the head and he died instantly. That was the last time I ever shot without reason.

When I was a child I hunted squirrels. I killed them, gut them, cooked and ate them. One day there were no more squirrels. That was the last time I shot anything.

I still go hunting but I see no reason to shoot. Cow tastes better.

When I was a teenager I watched my best friend die slowly. He had courage.

I killed my children. It cost me $400 to have a doctor assassinate two of my unborn children. We never met. I miss them but I do not think the doctor does. It is the only thing I regret. It is the only thing I would change.

My life is my script and it is filled with passion.